Stick Family

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

A mother's love

I always thought of myself as a "boy's mommy" and the thought of having a girl scared me. I never really thought of myself as a "girly" girl. Sure I love to shop, get my nails done, and dress up.....but I still don't consider myself a girly girl. So when I learned that baby #3 was a girl....I sorta panicked. With both the boys, I have this special mother/son bond. Boys will always love their mommies......but will little girls always love their mommies? Deep down inside I was happy to have a girl, but I was still nervous. Will I love her as much as I love my boys? Who will she look like? Who will she act like? Will she like me? As the months went on, I found myself really enjoying decorating her room, buying pink clothes for her, and just anticipating her arrival. Then the day came, Ashlyn Mae was born and my whole world changed. Her first night home, I found myself staring at her in awe....daydreaming of the future.....her 1st birthday party, painting those tiny little toenails, taking her on shopping trips, playing with her hair, helping her with boy troubles, getting ready for prom, packing her up for college, helping her plan her wedding, throwing her a baby shower.....these were thoughts going through my head. Hoping, wishing and praying that we would have a strong and unique bond. I know we will have our differences and our fights, but I really hope we will have a strong mother/daughter bond. I am very happy and blessed to have my baby girl and I am very excited to see what our future has in store of us. A friend of mine gave me a framed poem for Ashlyn's room....and I just LOVE IT!

A Mother's Heart

I loved you from the very start,
You stole my breath and embraced my heart.
Our life together has just begun,
You're part of me my little one.
As mother with child, each day I grew,
My mind was filled with thoughts of you.
I'd daydream of the things we'd share,
Like late-night bottles and teddy bears.
Like first steps and skinned knees,
Like bedtime stories and ABCs.
I thought of things you'd want to know.
Like how birds fly and flowers grow.
I thought of lessons I'd need to share,
Like standing tall and playing fair
When I first saw your precious face,
I prayed your life be touched with grace.
I thanked the angels from above.
And promised you unending love.
Each night I lay you down to sleep,
I gently kiss your head and cheek.
I count your little fingers and toes,
I memorize your eyes and nose.
I linger at your nursery door,
Awed each day I love you more.
Through misty eyes, I dim the light,
I whisper, "I love you" every night.
I loved you from the very start,
You stole my breath, embraced my heart.
As mother and child our journey's begun,
My heart's yours forever little one.

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